Damn it. I had a bad day yesterday. I keep thinking how at odds my actions are with my internal principles. Deep down and even closer to the surface I feel strongly against pornography. I believe there are so many negative effects from it across societies and families. So many people are hurt in so many ways because of the side effects. But, then in weaker moments I break down and participate in it. When I act out, my internal belief system is in a far different place than my actions – which is the opposite of integrity.
I need to work on my integrity.
I have an addiction to pornography and I acted out in my addiction yesterday. I am on day 1 of recovery.
