Ok, so there has been a several day gap in reports. I shouldn’t allow this to happen because my mind gets fuzzy about how I have done. I actually think I was very much on track for two weeks, and didn’t have any issues until day 12 (3 days ago) when I had a run-in with my addiction. I acted out 3 days ago, and had slight bounce-backs the last couple days. So, I am on day 3.
Acting out, viewing pornography isn’t who I want to be. I have a picture of who I want to be and it is very different. These reports are to try and hold some accountability. Obviously I have done poorly on both the accountability and the success in avoiding my addiction lately. I am trying to kickstart the accountability here, and for my addiction I need some extra focus today.
I have an addiction to pornography and many of the thoughts and desires in my head are the result of my addiction. I need to fundamentally change by putting effort in every day to recognize where my thoughts are coming from, and what is causing my emotions so I can deal with those things instead of coping.
