Day 10 of recovery. I had a moment of weakness in the last 4 days sometime, but I determined not to categorize my act as a slip-up. It was borderline though. I have not been good about doing routine items and focusing on each day improving. I jump right into working at the beginning of my days, and rarely take the time to reflect on my life or meditate or pray. Slowing down in the mornings a bit would help me a ton. That’s why I want to at least write in here at the start of every day, as it can help me center and kick off a habit chain if I line up activities behind it.
Other than that, I am going to get through today as the 10th day so I can move on to 11th. It’s a slow process of building up days, but I have to appreciate each one. I must remember that I am in recovery from an addiction to pornography, and that my addiction is a coping mechanism. I have to deal with my emotions in real ways, let them surface, and not push them down then try to escape from them. Writing here is one way I can help do that.
