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Well, I viewed pornography yesterday. That makes today day 1.

It’s hard to determine what my acting out schedule has been the last month since I haven’t written in here for that long. It’s been off and on. Pretty awful state of things. Writing on here is going to be necessary though to help me kick this.

I know that it’s a coping mechanism. I think the feelings I have been overwhelmed with are boredom and stress. The more freedom I get in my life the more I don’t know how to cope with the myriad ways in which I can spend my time. I am starting something this week which should help as I have structured my time much more rigidly and I intend to follow through with my plans. Writing here needs to be a regular part of this rigid structure.