I am reporting here because I haven’t had the gumption to go and find a person to report to. This is something I will still need to do. In the meantime, reporting here should give me a way to daily express where I am in my recovery.
Right now I am not in a great spot. But, even if I were in a great spot it would be important to not feel like I was in a great spot. It’s too easy to become over confident and feel like I am doing well when I just days ago was in the throes of addiction. I already feel some of that, where I am able to feel productive the last couple days and I become too relaxed in my perspective towards my addiction.
I acted out mere days ago, and I need to remember that I have a long ways to go. I need to focus on exercising self control in everything in my life, and working on building more structure. I need to feel capable of putting forth some effort to combat my addiction without feeling like I can do it without the help of God and others. There are going to be weak points where I need to say “I want to do this, I don’t know how to avoid it, please help me do something to prevent this” and in the weak moments when I would have otherwise chosen to act out, God will help me to abstain.
Addiction Reporting 