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Damn it. I had a bad day yesterday. I keep thinking how at odds my actions are with my internal principles. Deep down and even closer to the surface I feel strongly against pornography. I believe there are so many negative effects from it across societies and families. So many people are hurt in soContinue reading “Report 9”

I need to check in, struggling a bit. I didn’t follow my boundaries at all today, should have done better at that. I am at home along on the computer, not a good idea. I’ve got to do better about that. I was starting to act out, stopped, and now I am here. Hoping thisContinue reading “Check in 1”

I missed a day, so this is report 8, but I am on day 4. I have an addiction to pornography. I am in recovery, but for some reason the last few weeks I have fallen more times than I had for a long time. A lot of it has to do with not reportingContinue reading “Report 8”

Day 2 here. Recovering from my addiction to pornography. I am trying to make it part of the routine to re-read the previous report. I did that, and it was helpful. I have to remember every day how my life has become unmanageable. I need to be sincere with myself, pointedly remembering where I amContinue reading “Report 7”

Alright, let’s be real, my life is a little less in control than I like to pretend. Perhaps a lot. I am like “Yeah I am going to do better today” and then I get bored or just want to escape from whatever thoughts I am having and I slip right back into it. OnceContinue reading “Report 6”

I acted out yesterday. This resets me. I am not going to get beat down because I must stay positive and believe I can do better. As I started to act out, I remembered this blog and thought about writing an entry as a report mechanism to let the world know I was tempted. ThatContinue reading “Report 5”

I have an addiction to pornography. I am on my 3rd day of sobriety and I will not act out today. I was reading about was vets in Vietnam with heavy use of marijuana, LSD, cocaine and heroin. Before they came home, the White House was worried they would dramatically increase addiction to these substancesContinue reading “Report 4”

I have an addiction to pornography. I will not act out today. I am on my 2nd day of sobriety. Getting my thoughts outside of myself is essential for avoiding mindlessly falling into the habit. I often don’t grasp or consider what might be stressing me out or worrying me. Worries, stresses, frustrations and theContinue reading “Report 3”

I have an addiction to pornography. I will not act out today. I am on my 1st day of sobriety. I have been reading a book about habits recently, and it’s got me thinking how acting out is just a habit. There are triggers, rewards, and response. I need to break the habit so IContinue reading “Report 2”

I have an addiction to pornography. I will not act out again today. I am on my 0th day of sobriety. I have had this addiction for over half my life, and I have been through recovery programs and they worked well. An essential part of recovery is to report to someone, but I don’tContinue reading “I have an addiction to pornography”