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Day 7 of recovery. I am recovering from an almost 20 year addiction to pornography. My active viewing of pornography has gone from times where it happens a batch of a couple times a month or less to times when I am active in it with. Batches of 2-4 times a week. I view pornographyContinue reading “19”

Day 6 of recovery. I get a little knot in my stomach remembering how short it has been. Feeling that knot is critical though. I need to feel the guilt, remember the reliance I have on powers outside of myself to recover. An addiction like this is a lifelong recovery process. Even if I canContinue reading “18”

I am moving early today, it’s good to not dwindle as much. I call the time I spend writing here “Reflection”. I like this term because it means I take the time to reflect on my life, and how I am doing – which I tend to not do much of. There are a lotContinue reading “17”

Alright well I have been super distracted today. It is a Monday, so not a great start to my week. I have implemented some new things into my life that are going to help me at least remember where I ended up putting my time, so at least I wasn’t wasting time without accountability. EitherContinue reading “Report 16”

I am on my second day of not viewing Pornography. That means I have one day under my belt. It’s critical to be intentional about this, to really remember that this is where I am at. I am good at just forgetting about things that are unpleasant. I can just think “ew, I don’t wantContinue reading “Report 15”

I have regularly been viewing pornography for months. My last report was in March, and before that I have been viewing it on and off for nearly 20 years. I viewed pornography today. I grew up Christian, and I am still religious. I am not very active in my church, and I am starting toContinue reading “Report 14*”

Day 10 of recovery. I had a moment of weakness in the last 4 days sometime, but I determined not to categorize my act as a slip-up. It was borderline though. I have not been good about doing routine items and focusing on each day improving. I jump right into working at the beginning ofContinue reading “Report 13”

Yesterday was good. I am on day 5 of recovery. I am tempted today. But, I am going to replace my escaping mechanism desires with positive activities I enjoy, and recognize the feelings I am having so I can deal and overcome rather than escape. I am feeling a little overwhelmed right now I think,Continue reading “Report 12”

I am on day 4 of recovery from my addiction to pornography. I have a long ways to go. I will likely be tempted to act out today, but I am going to commit now to fighting it by replacing it with better things, such as watching youtube, or texting someone.

Ok, so there has been a several day gap in reports. I shouldn’t allow this to happen because my mind gets fuzzy about how I have done. I actually think I was very much on track for two weeks, and didn’t have any issues until day 12 (3 days ago) when I had a run-inContinue reading “Report 10”